Moving the Mountain of “me”

  The same power that rose Jesus from the grave

The same power that commands the dead to wake

Lives in us, lives in us

The same power that moves mountains when He speaks

The same power that can calm a raging sea

Lives in us, lives in us

He lives in us, lives in us

Jeremy Camp

As I struggled this weekend at several points to be joyful and have a good attitude (choosing that word was quite ambitious of me!) this song played again and again. We all love the idea of faith that can move mountains. It’s very grand, powerful and awesome. But what about the faith that can change our attitude? To be honest that’s where I struggle the most. I get sucked into a bad attitude and excuse it like its no big deal to God, “I’ll be better tomorrow”, and who cares if for 24 hrs I’m a horrible witness by my lack of joy. He cares that’s Who. I had this thought cross my mind….that power to move mountains does live in me but let’s just say I literally moved a mountain with a wave of my hand would that glorify God? “Hey, check out this mountain I just moved, praise the Lord!” Or is God mainly wanting us to understand the amazing strength of His power in us to do impossible things, like move mountains, so we can be conquerors in practical things, like changing our attitudes, selfishness, fears, distrust ect. How we act and treat others most definitely has the ability to glorify God by displaying His power, love, and grace to a watching world. And how we act/treat others can have the opposite effect. Which of course reminds me of Pauls words, “If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing.” 1 Corinthians‬ ‭13:2‬

Simply put when I have a fearful, distrusting, gloomy attitude it’s not loving to others. And if I think moving mountains would be great I need to believe that changing my attitude would be even better!

I’m finding when it comes to my lack of joy it’s a faith problem. Choosing joy over sadness, frustration, anger, anxiety, fear, ect. is really hard for some of us to do. With myself I’m seeing a pattern of clinging to my negative feelings as a way to try and control. When I’m confronted with needing to choose joy in the moment it feels like this huge impossible act of faith to let go and trust God. I can just see myself clinging to fear “Are you sure God? Can I really let this go, trust you, and be joyful, no matter the outcome? Are you sure? Are you sure? Are you sure?” 

My daughter, Micaila, has fears (probably thanks to me) about certain things. And whenever she gets really worked up and emotional I try to instill truth and confidence in her because I know her fear, typically, is unwarranted and that she will be okay. All I want is for her to trust me, her mother, and to not be afraid. 

I know God is using Micaila to convey the same message to me. 🙂

“You don’t have enough faith,” Jesus told them. “I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it would move. Nothing would be impossible. ” Matthew‬ ‭17:20‬ ‭

I can just hear Jesus saying “Katie, you are lacking faith when you choose fear over joy, anger over joy, gloom over joy, guilt over joy. The same power that moves mountains lives in you and this power, Me, wants to start with your joy.” Maybe not as impressive as moving a mountain but definitely important for giving glory to God.

Lord Jesus I pray I would have faith to move mountains and it would be reflected in my attitude and daily trusting you. Help all of us as Christians to see the importance of how we act. That being surrendered to the Holy Spirit will result in a changed mind, heart, and life. May we not be cavalier with our sinful attitudes or actions but have the desire and will to do only what pleases You Lord. 

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When I grow up….

Today I was really missing my mom. I know God brought our family to Georgia, away from all our family, for reasons more important than my comfort and pleasure but there are some days that I just ache to be near my mom and dad. But God uses this longing to teach me that it is Him who can supply everything I need. So if you too find yourself missing a loved one, maybe even for different reasons, pursue Christ and let Him be your Comforter and soul Satisfier. 

For several years now after Christmas my mom and dad have caravanned with us back to Georgia. At some point during their visit I am usually conspiring ways to get them to stay a little longer. I could have them a month and it probably wouldn’t be long enough. This year I was able to talk my dad into journeying home alone and letting mom fly back via Spirit Air. I got to keep her an extra 8 days. 🙂 
 

When I grow up I want to be like my mom.

Some would probably say “You ARE your mom” and in many ways I am like her. I saw this great plaque that made me laugh. It said “Mirror, mirror on the wall, I am my mother after all.” 🙂 But what I mean is I want to be like my mom in the way she loves Jesus and is wholly, unashamedly, downright dependent on Him. I mean, whether we see it this way or not we ALL are dependent on God but my mom recognizes this need for Him in her life and daily, moment by moment at times, she brings herself into the presence of her King and yearns for His grace, will, and wisdom. My mom is not perfect but her love for Jesus is without question.

“Seek the Lord and His strength; yearn for and seek His face and to be in His presence continually!”‭‭ 1 Chronicles‬ ‭16:11‬

God has graced my mother with many great qualities. She is a servant. If she CAN do it she WILL. We joke about how she says yes to everything. My mom has labeled herself with M.A.D.D. (Ministry attention deficit disorder) and sometimes laments over this characteristic. We tend to long for that individual ministry calling but I don’t think this is a defect or flaw if we don’t identify one. I think God needs individuals who are willing to come alongside any ministry to assist those with specific callings. I like to consider these the “Divergents” of ministry. I mean who doesn’t wanna be divergent? 😉

My mom is easy going and fun. She has this awesome ability to tackle tasks without getting overwhelmed. I can be staring at a mountain of paperwork, doctors appointments, and list of to-dos and she’ll be cheering in front of me “Just take it one thing at a time.” As we organized and post Christmas cleaned, she had such a “we can do this AND laugh/have fun” approach. Her attitude and quoting of scripture and truth repeatedly takes away my tendency to become anxious in certain situations and points me to the Source of peace and joy.

She is crazy gracious. Thank goodness for me…. She sees people from such a loving-merciful perspective and extends compassion and truth in ways that clearly identifies the power of the Holy Spirit within her.

…..that clearly identifies the power of the Holy Spirit within her……

This is how I want to be like her. I want to consistently act in ways that clearly identify the Spirit of God at work within me. And the key component I saw in my moms relationship with Christ is a beautiful marrying of mutual pursuit. He pursues her and she pursues Him. She pursues Him in His Word and in communicating with Him. He speaks in her heart and she seeks to obey. She listens FOR Him and talks to Him. She pursues Him honestly and repentantly. It is consistent. It is daily. Every morning I heard her rise early, denying precious hours of sleep after bunking with my children. (Being that they are bed hogs this is just not quality sleep.) At times in the day or evening she would retreat to her room to read or pray. One night we both escaped to her room and proceeded to cast all our cares and cover every base we could conceive of in prayer. 

What my mom reminded me though is how our relationship with Christ should be pursued like our sweetest most precious earthly relationships. We think about Him always, we talk with Him every chance we can, we ask for and value His opinion, we trust His wisdom, we heed His instruction and we treasure Him above all else. 

So Mom, thank you for making Christ your treasure, even at points above time with family. May we all learn from your beautiful example.

“But may all who search for you be filled with joy and gladness in you. May those who love your salvation repeatedly shout, “The LORD is great!”‭‭ Psalms‬ ‭40:16‬

*After finishing this post my mom called me to share about an old journal she ran across. The journal exposed some of her early struggles (like rising early to commune with God- exhaustion is definitely the theme for young moms) in her pursuit of Christ and it was a wonderful reminder that sanctification is indeed lifelong and often slow. Dear Lord, help us to never lose heart or grow impatient with the process.*

My Word for 2016

For 2015 I chose the word obedience. Like any “resolution” you start off pretty strong and intentional and then 6 months later you find yourself slacking a bit, not pondering that word or commitment as intensely as before. But last year God gave me ample reminders and opportunity to consider this word I had chosen. 

  • In May, I followed through with His prompting to be re-baptized. It was important to acknowledge that my life had not been surrendered to Him for years, even into adulthood. I am now and I needed to respond humbly and publicly by way of baptism. 
  • After many months of prayer and consideration my husband and I sensed the Lord was prompting us to homeschool our daughters….. Again. This was a huge step for me in particular because while I sensed strongly this was Gods leading, I was scared, knowing how difficult it would be and the sacrifice involved. In faith I obeyed. 
  • For the last year and a half we have been attending a church plant in our area. From our vantage point, the town we live in needs the vision of this church, yet it has struggled to really get going. It’s left us wondering whether God wanted to use us here or not on several occasions. In September our founding, lead and basically only pastor felt led to step down. We found ourselves with the “perfect exit” and yet God impressed on Jason and I both to stay with the body of Christ and see that this church doesn’t close its doors to a broken community in need of the Savior. We have yet to resolve many issues the church has, like not having a pastor, but we know God is still on his throne and we will not walk away unless he asks us to.
  • In November my husband had the opportunity to go on his first foreign missions trip to Guatemala. Knowing what an incredible opportunity this would be for him I excitedly supported his desire to go. But as his trip drew near I realized this would require me to spend several nights alone. I have issues with being alone, to say the least. I did spend one night away with our cousins but I sensed God prompting me to spend some nights at home, with my kids, not alone but with HIM. I fought the temptation to ignore this prompting and stay with a friend and I embraced the dark of the night with His Word in my grip, the prayers of His saints and His voice whispering comfort and strength in my ear. “I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress; My God, in Him I will trust………You shall not be afraid of the terror by night, Nor of the arrow that flies by day,”‭‭ Psalms‬ ‭91:2, 5‬

Those are some examples of opportunities I was given to choose obedience and because I did, I experienced the fruit of yielding to Christ. Fruit like greater trust in Him, strengthening patience and faith, and joy in obedience. There were of course other times that I chose not to obey and reaped the consequences of my resistance and disobedience to God or simply missed out on partnering with God in his bigger story. A life surrendered to Christ obviously is a lifelong pursuit of obedience. He’s revealed to me time and again the delight of surrendering to His Lordship. Though my word this year is changing my desire in that area is not. Obedience is the mark of a Christ follower. 

But this brings me to my Word for 2016….

Joy. 



Every where I go it seems God is impressing this word on me. In fact I burst out with excitement and a big grin when my friend and fellow blogger chose the same word! 🙂 love it! Joy is also the mark of a Christ follower. I want to have, express, and exude joy.


Joy in weakness.

“Because you are my helper, I sing for joy in the shadow of your wings.” Psalms‬ ‭63:7‬ ‭

Joy in salvation.

“Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and make me willing to obey you.” ‭Psalms‬ ‭51:12‬ ‭

“You thrill me, LORD, with all you have done for me! I sing for joy because of what you have done.” ‭‭Psalms‬ ‭92:4‬ 

Joy in trials.

“So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you must endure many trials for a little while…….You love him even though you have never seen him. Though you do not see him now, you trust him; and you rejoice with a glorious, inexpressible joy.” ‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭1:6&8

“Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy.”‭‭ James‬ ‭1:2‬ ‭

Joy in our Refuge and His love.

“But let all who take refuge in you rejoice; let them sing joyful praises forever. Spread your protection over them, that all who love your name may be filled with joy.” Psalms‬ ‭5:11‬ 

Joy in troubles that results in giving of ourselves.

“Now I want you to know, dear brothers and sisters, what God in his kindness has done through the churches in Macedonia. They are being tested by many troubles, and they are very poor. But they are also filled with abundant joy, which has overflowed in rich generosity.” ‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭8:1-2‬

Joy in the Lords discipline.

“Joyful are those you discipline, LORD, those you teach with your instructions.” Psalms‬ ‭94:12‬ ‭

“For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime! Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning.”‭‭ Psalms‬ ‭30:5

Joy in forgiveness.

“Yes, what joy for those whose record the LORD has cleared of sin.” Romans‬ ‭4:8‬ 

“Oh, what joy for those whose disobedience is forgiven, whose sin is put out of sight!” Psalms‬ ‭32:1‬ ‭


Joy in obedience.


“I take joy in doing your will, my God, for your instructions are written on my heart.” Psalms‬ ‭40:8‬ ‭

Joy in HIM alone.

“You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever.” Psalms‬ ‭16:11‬ ‭

“Satisfy us each morning with your unfailing love, so we may sing for joy to the end of our lives.”‭‭ Psalms‬ ‭90:14‬ ‭

“There I will go to the altar of God, to God—the source of all my joy. I will praise you with my harp, O God, my God!”‭‭ Psalms‬ ‭43:4‬ ‭

Joy. Unspeakable joy.

“Always be full of joy in the Lord. I say it again—rejoice!” Philippians‬ ‭4:4‬