In case I hadn’t told you I’m not perfect and our family isn’t perfect. It’s so easy to write about the good times. I mean who wants to read a depressing blog about all the ugly imperfections of our family. Not me! Its not fun to write about either. But we do have them, imperfections.
I wrote yesterday about how well our first placement is going. Which is completely true. But I didn’t mention that, though she is a delight, and very easy to care for and love, she’s still a child and children require work. So we have 4 little ones that all have different needs and all require different levels of work. We also have a marriage that requires work. And so, a lot of my posts will be about happy times and sweet moments but don’t be deceived. That’s not why this blog is here. I would never want you to read it and think everything is always Lolli pops and gum drops around here. Sometimes I just want to cry because I feel like I can’t do it. Sometimes I have moments of weakness and satan pounces on me with all kinds of lies to devalue me and make me feel like I have no business being a mom or wife or fostering. But what’s that verse everyone loves to quote? (Rhetorical question obviously) Yet so quickly we disbelieve, which is evident by our actions and behaviors.
“For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.” (Philippians 4:13 NLT)
I believe this! I believe him! He put that there because its true.
Earlier in the book of Philippians Paul writes “I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.” (Philippians 3:14 NLT)
When I talk about those moments that by worldly standards we might be “falling apart” it’s to encourage you. That you may feel at points that you’re falling apart and maybe you even think you have no business serving or meeting the needs of others because you feel so broken. As a visiting pastor once told our congregation “Serve out of your brokenness”. Because the fact is we will never reach perfection so if you are waiting on that or to have it “all together” you’ll be waiting forever.
Right now in the midst of all these changes that have so much potential to honor God satan wants to destroy our efforts. So we have moments of amazing grace and blessing and we have moments on our knees in prayer for strength. But it’s Him that meets us and reveals to us all the grace and glory and love we need. And I’ll tell you, before I started this I was praying for strength and discernment and when I hit publish I will begin again in prayer. And forgive me for being repetitive but we are so grateful for all your prayers on our behalf. Thank you. Seriously, THANK YOU. 🙂