A glimpse into our new normal

Pretty much gonna have to bear with me on the postings. Just to give you an idea of what it takes to write something, it’s now 1:00 pm. I think I opened my computer around 10:30am. In the course of that time Caleb needed his diaper changed which turned into (as it sometimes does) quite the fiasco. People warned me about little boys and their little parts…. it still surprises me EVERY TIME. I go to change him, get him all cleaned up and like a fire hose he very efficiently begins to spray us all. He soaks the floor, his outfit, basically anything within 2 feet of him. (Boys got range!)Β  Of course me and the girls are all laughing. (you have to keep your sense of humor!) I go to change his outfit and make sure he’s wiped down good, for crying out loud son I just gave you a bath last night. πŸ˜‰ I get him in a diaper and a new onesie which he proceeds to spit up on. Then Ryann says “Mommy what’s on your pants??”……. “Well Ryann it would appear your brother pooped on me at some point with out my knowing.” Yup.

So now that Caleb is clean and dressed, which took all of 25 minutes at the very least, I have to go get myself changed. And look at the time, Caleb is ready to nurse again. As I’m nursing him I start to feel a head ache coming on and it dawns on me, I hadn’t gotten to make my coffee yet. Caffeine withdrawals, aahhh! I just can not afford to have a pounding lack of caffeine kind of head ache. Worse kind ever! So I finish nursing the dear boy, sweet, you went potty, again, change another diaper, and finally at almost noon make it to my espresso machine. Mean while the girls want to be fed AGAIN, (lol) because I mean who eats that often?? “You had breakfast, you mean you want lunch too?”Β πŸ˜‰ Finally I get my coffee and feed my sweet daughters, (who are really doing a great job hangin in there while mommy masters 3) meanwhile Caleb didn’t get his fill and wants to nurse yet again.

And all this happened within 3 hours.

Obviously we are still adjusting. And I tell you this because well its real life and I kind of find it humorous. AND I wouldn’t change one single minute or scenario that makes up my day. In fact, I’m enjoying it ALL. The multiple diaper changes, feedings, sleepless nights, and everything in between.

(changes diaper)

Is that odd? I don’t think so. Just as our Heavenly Father delights in us, we take delight in our own children. Just as He loves us so unconditionally we love our children in this way. Of course His love is perfect and ours could certainly use perfecting. But this is one thing I love about being a parent. You really begin to understand His love.

(time to feed!)

Loving your own child is so different from any love you experience on earth. Even the love you have for your spouse is different. Not that we love them less but it’s just different. I am so grateful for this glimpse of how much Jesus loves me. It’s a wonderful reminder that keeps me focused on what really matters in life. Oh how I could go on with this subject…. it will have to wait though for another blog.

I’ll end with lyrics from one of my new favorite songs. It just happens to be playing in the background. Anthem Lights: Can’t Get Over You


“I can’t get over the way, your love stays the same Oh Lord.”Β  Β 

By the way…….. 2:00pm


Fun pictures of Caleb and the girls

I would have loved to purchase the precious photos that were taken in the hospital. They don’t do the lame portraits like they used to. Now they have professional photographers on site that come and capture some of those first moments your baby has after they’ve arrived. Even though they came and went in 15 minutes, using the natural light from your window and hospital pillows for props, they still want to charge you an arm and leg to take those wonderful photos home. My mom and I tried to put together the absolute CHEAPEST package including only 2 of the “poses” taken….. we would have gotten about 10 photos…. and it would have still cost 75 dollars. Umm….. no. I will take my own pictures thank you.

My mom bought some simple white tanks and leggings for the girls and a white onsie for Caleb. We used Caleb’s room because it had the best natural light. I made a pallet right under his window with his nursery quilt and a bunch of white pillows. Then we just sat everyone on the pallet and started snapping photos. On my camera (I have an Olympus DSLR) I have a setting called “High Key”, used to enhance bright areas. I used this setting with no flash. Honestly I have NO clue what I’m doing. My camera is way to advance for me, I really don’t know how to properly use it and I’ve never taken a photography class in my life. Considering all that I think my pictures aren’t that bad lol. And you can’t beat free!

So this is what I’ve taken. πŸ™‚

I LOVE this next one. It’s so “real” and I feel as if it’s a glimpse into Caleb’s future as the younger brother haha. Good luck!



I took this of Ryann, she was being extra cooperative.

The next ones are just of Caleb. We were trying to have fun with some of his pictures and borrow ideas from the internet. However I admit, naked baby pictures were cute until it was my baby, and than it just felt weird lol. So we stuck with the white onsie mostly.

I loved the idea of him on the guitar because his daddy loves playing the guitar. Kind of like “One day I’ll be just like daddy.”

This was all the nakedness that I’d photograph hehe. I crocheted the bear cap. πŸ™‚

And of course him in his first Bama beanie. Love it!

I have taken so many more photos but sadly, I’m running out of space for pictures! Aaahhh!! Not sure what I’m gonna do when that happens. Anyway, hope you enjoyed my novice photography! πŸ˜‰

Caleb Bryant Graham

Well I’m sure you all know by now that our precious little boy has arrived. πŸ™‚ After a few failed attempts to naturally bring on labor my induction date rolled around on Friday the 6th. My mom and I headed to the hospital a little after 9am. We were both so excited that the day had finally arrived. And of course God truly KNOWS what he is doing. His timing is perfect. Even though I was more than ready to hold my sweet baby boy, waiting to be induced was the way for him to come. For one thing Jason has been pretty busy with his new business, (which is AWESOME and we just praise God for that blessing) and of course anyone would understand “My wife went into labor!” but my being induced on a Friday and having the entire weekend was perfect. Jason was able to wrap up his work Friday morning and come to the hospital before anything really had started. But the main reason it was good that I was induced was I had tested positive for the Group B Strep infection. If you’ve had children you’d be familiar with this test. To prevent the baby from becoming infected its ideal that you receive antibiotics (in most cases penicillin) for at least 4 hours right before delivery. So since an induction is pretty controlled this worked out perfect. Once the time had passed and I was pumped full of penicillin we were ready to get things rolling! I informed my midwife of my previous speedy deliveries so with that in mind we made sure the anesthesiologist was at my door once my water was broken. They got me all set with my epidural, which ended up taking a little longer than normal because initially it only worked on my left side! Gah! I experienced 30 minutes worth of FULL BLOWN contractions on my right side. Enough to convince me (I mean I was already convinced) that I would never ever consider going “natural”. LOL! This girl ain’t cut out for that. Once they tweaked it and I was mostly numb I began feeling pressure. I told my sweet midwife Julie and she confirmed “Yep! It’s time to push! Let’s have a baby!” Eeee!!!! Once I started pushing he was here on my 3rd contraction. It could not have gone smoother, God is good. Caleb came into this world with a FULL head of hair weighing in at 6 pounds 14 ounces, just 1 ounce bigger than Ryann, and he is 20 inches long. He is absolutely perfect.

Some of our first moments.

Micaila and Ryann are adjusting to his arrival really well. They just adore him and are big helpers to me. I hope it lasts!! πŸ™‚

In the days that have followed I have realized more and more just how perfect God’s timing was in all of this. You always know his plan is best but leading up to it, impatience can get the best of us.

I am enjoying Caleb so much. Of course I enjoyed the girls but I believe something about my age, the season of life I’m in, the time that has lapsed between him and Ryann, I am just soaking up each moment and trying not to miss a thing. I know now more than ever how quickly the time flies.

There is something about giving birth and meeting this baby I’ve been carrying for 40 weeks,….. Seeing this beautiful child that the Lord allowed me to partner with HIM in creating. It’s very overwhelming. I just can’t stop thanking him. I feel so incredibly loved BY him. And I pray that I can honor him by being a godly mother to these children, and every chance I get point them toward this loving heavenly Father of ours.

We love you so much sweet Caleb!

50 Shades of Gray

About a week ago I started to write a blog about this book. It just wasn’t coming together the way I was hoping. I haven’t read it, wasn’t planning to, didn’t know what it was about till recently, and then REALLY had no interest in it and frankly was shocked over the chatter. I stumbled across this blog and Kristin could not have said it better. Please give it a read. I feel on some level the same goes for the movie Magic Mike.


We are called to a higher standard. Let’s challenge ourselves to be different. Christ has our best interest at heart, let’s pursue the Truth spoken in His Word.

A few home improvements

As we wait out these last few days till Caleb arrives we decided to tackle a few “home improvement” tasks we have been putting off. Our master bedroom has had 3 giant blotchy samples of paint on its walls for about a year now and though we LOST those original samples we finally settled on a color and got to work. We ended up using the same color “gentle fawn” that we used in Micaila and Ryann’s room. Jason’s idea and as usual it was a good one despite my apprehension of how it would mesh with our bedspread. I absolutely love it! We aren’t finished yet, Jason is actually doing that now as I type. I can take credit for only 1 of the 4 ginormous walls. Did I mention I love him?? Needless to say we are all camping out on a mattress in the living room tonight to let it air out. I have one picture of MY wall that I did an amazing job painting. I’ll post more once it’s done. πŸ™‚


Jason also used the same paint in our downstairs bathroom. I graciously contributed a little of my skill here (out of fear I might go into labor the one evening I DIDN’T have our house clean) but he finished the majority of it. He also framed out the mirror which makes a huge difference! It just looks very NICE now. The paint happens to match everything we had in there already too so big score there!



“I like it a lot!” πŸ˜‰ and since he was able to finish up in there I was able to get everything downstairs put back together, so I feel pretty good about “if I were to go into labor”…. (I’m not the only one who totally stresses about that right??) Master is still a wreck but I’m okay with that for now. I’m SURE there will be tomorrow πŸ™‚

We also bought a new light fixture for our stairs and it’s pretty sweet, I like it a lot as well. Sorry I’m terrible at the whole “before/after” thing. Oh well!


Stay tuned for updates on the Master bedroom, soon to be “Suite” because with this coat of paint I must say it is pretty SWEET πŸ˜‰ hehe. Yep, I said that.